It was during one of the most recent pretend conversations that I caught myself hashing out, I experienced a sobering realization enter my mind. As soon as I silently said something inside my head, I realized that what I just thought about a particular person and situation, not only sounded selfish, but was actually also unkind. At that moment, I wondered what these words truly were revealing about my heart?

Recently, at my internship, a lot of people have told me that they see that I could be a team lead and recommended that I apply for a full-time internship with this church. This terrified me – mostly insecurity on my part.... So many doubts went into my head about me not being fit enough to lead, not being able to communicate that well, and wondering if I could handle that much pressure and responsibility. 

I deserved that promotion! I had done everything asked of me.... Yet, the answer remains “not yet.”....This has been my biggest struggle lately. I haven’t found a way to rejoice while I wait. The scriptures are so encouraging, but putting them into practice is challenging.