God of the Unknown

When life feels uncertain, it’s so easy to fall into the trap of trying to control everything. We want answers. We want to feel prepared. We want to make sure nothing is left up in the air. At least, I feel that way. It seems safer to hold tight than to surrender. But when I start clinging to control, I usually end up feeling the opposite of peace. I get anxious. Overwhelmed. Hopeless.

Right now, I’m 39 weeks pregnant with my first child, and to be honest, there have been a lot of unknowns. I really thought my faith was built on a firm foundation, but after a few uneasy test results, being labeled a high-risk pregnancy, and struggling with depression throughout these past months—I’ve been shaken.

My time with God used to be daily and something I relied on. But slowly, it became weekly, and then even less. I turned to the world instead. Scouring books, blogs, and spending countless hours googling. I was looking for peace and answers anywhere I could find them. I could feel myself slowly slipping. I don’t know why I do this. I know better. In a season where I should’ve been even more into prayer and staying in the Word, I tried to take control. I tried to fix it all myself. And honestly? I made myself miserable in the process.

I felt ashamed. But, aware of that sinful tendency, I try to reroot myself every day now in who I know God to be—the Prince of Peace and the God of the unknown.

It reminds me of Abram and Sarai. God promised them a child, but Sarai didn’t wait. She took matters into her own hands.

“So Sarai said to Abram, ‘The Lord has prevented me from having children. Go and sleep with my servant. Perhaps I can have children through her.’ And Abram agreed with Sarai’s proposal.” – Genesis 16:2 (NLT)

It doesn’t seem like she stopped believing the promise entirely—she just didn’t trust how it would happen. So, she stepped in, tried to make things happen her own way. And that decision came with consequences. It caused her and Abram pain later on, just like it always does when we try to play God.

But here’s the grace in the story… God’s promise still stood.

“The Lord kept His word and did for Sarah exactly what He had promised. She became pregnant, and she gave birth to a son for Abraham in his old age. This happened at just the time God had said it would.” – Genesis 21:1-2 (NLT)

It’s so easy to read that and think, How could they not just wait? How could they not trust God? But then I look at my own life, and I realize—I’ve been Sarah (Sarai). I am Sarah. Trying to take control when things feel uncertain. Rushing ahead when God is clearly asking me to wait.

There’s a reason we give God lordship over our lives. We trust Him to lead because He sees the whole picture. He knows what we don’t. What feels uncertain or overwhelming to us has already been perfectly written by Him.

So what are you carrying right now that feels unknown?
What’s weighing on you?
Where are you turning for answers?

You might not even realize you’ve been searching in the wrong places. I didn’t. Not until I started to feel my peace slipping away.

But I’m reminded that I don’t have to figure it all out. I just have to bring it to the One who already has.

“Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank Him for all He has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.” – Philippians 4:6-7 (NLT)

His peace is real. His promises are true.
And even in the unknown, He’s already there.